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Name: Child
Interests: staring at others. laughing very loudly (i cant help it). asking thought provoking questions. Stopping slander. Reaching for faith like a child. Never being fully content. Raising my hand. Forgetting the definition of embarassment. Putting others first. Being appreciative. Surprising others. Getting surprised. Listening. Learning the definition of silence. Surrendering control. Taking notice of quirks. Keeping secrets. Trying new tastes, listening to new ideas. Not being my own. Learning the truth of patience. Keeping my identity truthful, and for myself. Smiling secretly. Protecting those i love, even if it hurts me. Not worrying, theres no point. Accepting.
Occupation: Artist
Message: message me
AIM:  Gilligan115
Member Since:
5/16/2003
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| i've been gone a long time, but its interesting to return, and realize that while i have grown, i havent changed one bit. i still think about the same things, i still feel the same ways, but perhaps i do it with less passion. its funny to see how over the course of time we learn how to act and react, how to present ourselves, how to be someone specific, a better versoin of ourselves, but in the end what we come back to is who we were initially. jesus said to be like the children, and it used to be such a simple idea. im not sure where the simplicity went. i'm not sure if i know how to be satisfied with myself anymore. i dont think things like being still feel like enough. i wish i could remember how to slow down. i wish i could remember how not to worry. i never used to worry, i just knew God was enough. but what is this thing that i've become. is this some version of adult?
i wish i could harness all i have and reevaluate it. im not sure where im coming from anymore, but i know where i want to return.
i guess it's time to try.
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| there are many things im thankful for. im thankful that i have people to eat dinner with, and that food is something that brings people together in discussion. im thankful for the people God has put in my life, that on a day to day i am lucky enough to be blessed with their conversation and loving hearts; that i have friends that look after me and i in turn look after. im thankful for laughter. that no matter how far down i can fall, there is still enough joy in my heart to laugh. im thankful for opportunity. that every thing i do is an opportunity either for myself or for someone else: to meet someone new, someone that maybe youll become closer to than anyone else, to gain knowledge and wisdom in the events that we feel may destroy our lives, or maybe just to have a chance to relax and reflect on the beautiful creation that has been gifted to us. im thankful the i have a body that has hands and legs to dance, and a voice to sing; a mind to think and dream and choose. im thankful my fingers can hold a pencil and use a gift God has given me. im thankful that i am capable of love. that i can maybe show love to someone that cannot love themself, or to a stranger ive never met. im thankful for the future, for the places ill go, for the friends ill have, for the family ill leave and the family ill begin, for my husband and the memories that will be built. im thankful for my past, for i would not be who i am if i did not struggle and loften times learn the hard way whether i was at fault or not, but mostly im thankful for now because it is the only time ill be able to do anything about.
im thankful for you.
im thankful for me.
and im thankful for God.
i love you.
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Don’t cry baby, don’t cry.
Everythings not going to be
alright. There will be days of trouble, and tears will
fall
But i'll be here to catch them
all, so don’t cry baby don’t cry tonight,
Beause i'll be here when its
not alright.
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you are not replaceable
there is something special about you that no one else has.
and maybe its the way the light just pours out of you
and maybe its in the laugh you have, even when youre faking it
and maybe its in the way that no matter how much you know what youre doing, you have no idea what youre doing.
and youre not afraid to admit that.
its in the desire to know more, to strive to be more.
its in the feeling of being a failure.
you are not replaceable.
becase theres no one else thats quite like you.
and i dont know where i would be without you.
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i am so desperately alive
i am alive by desperation
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